I don't understand what happend tuesday. Daniel and i, really drukeningly, decided to buy $100 worth of shrooms from willie. We ate them at 11pm. After walking from Bay st, to park st, to webster, to my house, and then the crab cove, we sat by the water for a long time. I didn't know what was happening, reality was fucked and i can hardly even remeber what went on. upon leaving, we sat down on Central and talked. He began crying, saying things like, "you dont understand hannah..when you say 'i love you' it donesn't sound real... you are not obbligated to be my friend" i feel completey worthless. What the fuck happened. I recieved a message from Katie Royce, who has every reason to hate me, and after i listening to that, along with seeing the ways daniel feels.. i have fucked up, big time. At this point I am confuzed, diliruos, sad, and cold. We parted our ways, i had nowhere to spend the night, my house was locked so i sat in my backyard until 1:30am. But then i decided to waklk over to broadway and see if daniel would let me stay at his house, nope, so i call alexa, she doesn't pick up, so im left with my last option, my brother. i stumble into his apartment and 3am. His gives me water and goes to bed. I miss Gracie. That is such an understatement, there is so much more emotion involved than just simpley missing her. i don't know. i just want her to be home.